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when did they get this one in my head? [Feb. 22nd, 2005|08:49 pm]

[mood |fdkfds]
[music |sublime]

Whenever I think about the future. I mean the future of most of my relationships, I have a lot of reservations. It seems like it's been drilled into my head so much that I just can't quiet it: No matter how hard you try, the people you love and love you back--including your family, close friends, girlfriends, boyfriends, everyone-- will eventually stop loving you/caring about you and move on with their lives? I feel this way all the time. I feel like it's stupid and naive of me to even hope that any of my relationships will endure. Sometimes family is an exception, I guess. It makes me so, ugh, mad or sad or some other real emotion that I can't seem to put my finger on. I know this can't just be me. Or maybe it is. That would be pathetic. Whatever.


ps- I saw Sideways and hated it. That's probably just me too.
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just saying hi to new friends [Feb. 15th, 2005|01:44 am]
just saying hi to new friends
i'm new so i thought i'd say hi.
still have a lot to learn about life.
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I'm going back to school [Feb. 13th, 2005|10:31 pm]

Okay I'm going to rant for a sec.

Financial aid is awesome but the whole process is just stupid. I should just be able to go up there and say "Hey I need money, you guys hook me up or I'm not going to your stupid school." Or maybe a more tactful approach.

What I would like is feedback from people who have already been through this type of drama...I will admit that I was the lucky one who got all my prior schooling paid for by scholarships I received when I graduated from high school. I'm just frustrated and at my wit's end! Someone help. Or just be an ear for me. Thanks!

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(no subject) [Feb. 12th, 2005|07:43 pm]

[mood |frustratedfrustrated]

i've considered myself agnostic for about a year now. my dad and i got into it, because i wouldn't say grace over my food. i've been saying grace with my parents at meals to keep the peace; i was hoping my dad wouldn't notice this evening... but he did.
he got angry and yelled at me to say my grace. (by the way, i'm twenty-four y-o!) i told him that he wasn't being fair and he has a narrow-minded way of this issue.
shouldn't my parents be happy/proud that i'm questioning things (i.e. religion) without continuing to just accept things on blind faith?
if at some point in the future i realize that i'm wrong, i'll go back to christianity.
i think that many religions, including christianity, have some great points but i don't agree with all of them. i question whether some "merciful almighty" exists with all the wrong there is in the world. and if you really break it down, many religions have beliefs that have to be accepted on blind faith. my grandma said, "then who makes it rain?" i think there is a logical scientific explanation with evidence as proof.
after all i've gone through in the past few months, i've realized a need for hope or faith in something; it helps get you through the rough times. i just haven't figured out what i have hope or faith in.
my most disturbing thought: if it's not christianity, my parents are going to give me serious grief.

any thoughts?
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I'm new. So... [Feb. 6th, 2005|11:55 pm]

[music |foo fighters - requiem]

My name is Dyana. I'm 20 and I live in Texas.

Anything else you want to know you can check out my info page or whatever.

Well I know we just met and everything, but please wish me some luck! I'm trying to go back to college (dropped out for personal reasons) and my application is up for review tomorrow. So yeah.

I'll be posting on here, but I would just like to know, what topics are usually not taboo in this community?

add me if you want to! I can always use new friends. What do you have to lose?
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HELLLLLLLLLLLLLO [Feb. 6th, 2005|06:44 pm]

[mood |goodgood]
[music |neighbors tv]

One huge thing that is a little difficult, for me anyway, is the "growing apart" aspect.

You have these great friends who are everything to you. You wanna be with them all the time. They feel like your other half.....and then years down the line....you don't even talk.

It is a very odd feeling because you want to place blame for something like that. You want to say, "I must have done something wrong.", or, "they're the bitch that doesn't call...." Whatever the case may be.

But the fact is, you have just grown apart.

That friend has gone away and had different life experiences without you and has become a different person.

Hopefully you have too.

And it makes you sad that this person doesn't fill that role in your life anymore.

Hopefully you find others to fill more important and permanent roles in your life.

You will always have the memories.

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HQ.796.C819.1996 [Feb. 4th, 2005|01:35 pm]

[mood |working]
[music |Fuck Her Gently, Tenacious D (coming from next door)]

Today I went to the library with my Honors class and checked out two books on this time, you know:
Quarterlife Crisis, by Robbins and Wilner
(this seems like it's more of a self-help kind of book...lame)
Generation on Hold: Coming of Age in the Late Twentieth Century, by Cote and Allahar
(this'll be a good one, I can tell by the colorful collage of guns, children and sexual images on the cover)

Anyone else have any books that maybe their parent's gave them when they graduated (in the vein of 'so you've got a degree...NOW WHAT?)? I'm looking at the way they'er written and the way they're marketed. Oh yeah, and the content. Right?

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Social Security [Feb. 3rd, 2005|10:50 am]

I posted a bit about the State of the Union Address in my personal lj, but I thought I'd copy and paste it here to get a little feed back from you guys.

I'm nowhere near retiring, none of us are, but I think that social security should be on our minds. I really don't know what to think of all this talk going around about Social Security. All I know is that whatever happens is going so help us or screw us in the end. What do you guys think about it?

This is what I wrote/typed earlier...

State of the Union

Well, I only caught the analysis of the speech on NPR. I was at OCHSA until late. Maybe it's because I'm not educated on the issue, but I don't know what the big deal is about privatizing social security. I mean, it wouldn't be privatizing all of it and we'd have the option to do this. They did it in the UK and 80% chose to privatize part of it and they got a 5% return instead of a 1% return. And, investing a little of our social security would boost the economy, wouldn't it? This doesn't seem that risky, especially if you have the option and it's not all of it. I guess what the big problem is is that it costs a whole lot to create these personal accounts...like in the trillions...or maybe that's made up...anyway, I would like to know where the money is coming from, but I think as our population and economy are growing and changing social security reform is in order. I am a hardcore democrat and I'm pretty liberal, but I don't know why democrats down the line are all against this proposal.

Of course, I don't know if this is necessarily a solution for social security going bankrupt. How does this save money in the long run, or put more into the SS fund? You have to cut benefits or raise the age of retirement, like Aaron said, and we've just got to deal with that. I wouldn't mind raising the age. As technology and modern medicine make our lives longer and keep us running on a full tank, it's only fair to raise the age of retirement.
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Preparation for life...? [Feb. 2nd, 2005|11:31 pm]
This morning, while realizing that I have at least one exam each week for the rest of the semester, my roommate and I discussed the fact how weird it is that college, which is supposed prepare us for real life, doesn’t at all. I mean, sure, we are for the first time living without the comfort of mommy and daddy down the hall and for those of us fortunate enough to be enjoying dorm life, we have to deal with the…ahem…perks of roommates. But really, when you think about it, when am I ever in the real life going to be on a meal plan? When am I going to have to read 150 pages for one class, do a problem set for another, write lab reports and essays all while studying for a midterm? When will I have to show up somewhere (a.k.a. class) when I have the flu or because if I don’t go, I will fall drastically behind?

Don’t get me wrong, I know that work is, well, work and I know that being in the real world requires time management skills et al. I know that real life will be more stressful than college. But that maybe is my point. It just seems ludicrous that the kind of stressors that I find in college are supposed to be comperable to the ones I'll find out in the real world. How is the kind of stress I'm experiencing in college going to help me when I have to make sure the bills are going to get paid, that I will have enough to eat, that I will have enough gas in my car, and all of the stress of having a family comes along(a long time down the road, folks.)

These are just my thoughts on this matter...now off to study...
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joining you [Feb. 3rd, 2005|12:04 am]

it was an excellent idea to develop this community. i'm 24 and i recently moved home due to a quarterlife crisis. i loved college and while i learned many things there, nothing i learned has made my transition to adulthood or "the real world" easier.
i have a useless B.A. in English. (by the way, i just have a bad habit of always writing emails and online journal entries in lowercase;) i have bounced from crappy job to crappy job. i've lost my faith in god and any desire to risk forming an intimate relationship. i guess you could say i'm existing for the moment when i wake up from the nightmare that is life. i know not all college grads go through a depression but it's happening to a lot of us. i decided to stay in the city where i went to colege, but my friends moved away. i made new friends but they aren't and probably never will be what my college friends were to me. the only thing that i find entertaining now is connecting with people through livejournal. connecting here fills some void; it makes me feel less lonely.
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